I find comfort in the words on this page of my prayer book and pray all can feel the same comfort. The last couple of years have been trial after trial and there were times I felt defeated, hopeless, lost, & angry. Now I am working to daily keep God first by waking in the morning and spending time with Him, praying, reading, & listening. And with that comes peace, joy, patience, kindness, and love. His love can strengthen us and give us hope.
So we must never forget, no matter where we are, God is there. “Now may our Lord Jesus Christ himself and God our Father, who loved us and through grace gave us eternal comfort and good hope, comfort your hearts and strengthen them in every good work and word.” -1 Thessalonians 2:16-17
Words urge to break free. All morning I have wanted to words upon a page and yet have been too busy. But should I be too busy to take a few moments to free myself upon a page?–To connect with myself, the real me, my God, My Savior, My heart and my soul?
I think I should instead write and write and write. Especially when so much in my world is a mess. When my husband’s ex keeps on sabotaging our relationship with his son….lying, hurting our character, getting us in possible trouble…me with a jury trial in a few short weeks. It breaks my heart and makes me angry. Why? Why does someone have to be so vindictive and mean? I am praying daily for guidance and direction, for the truth to win out. I am so blessed to know my God and to know He is there through it all. he is guiding me, supporting me and allowing it for a reason. I pray for the charges to be at rest, with a jury who will see the truth. I pray that the truth wins out. I pray she will be told to stop hurting her son in the way she is.
I breathe in peace and out all the anger, hurt, and resentment. I breathe in joy. I breathe in love. My God, My Christ, My Friend. With him I stand, waiting for the next step. Waiting for His word and guidance. Waiting…patiently.
He will allows be with me, love me and never forsake me.
I can do this, I am strong in Christ and can rise above the waves crashing all around me.
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I have these big and amazing dreams and its not the first time I have felt excited about them but the first time I have felt like they are an actual possibility. I wanna reach out to my community and love them where they are. I want to do more than tell them what to do…I want to empower them through themselves to become all that they can be. That is how Christ rolls out of us and into others. He asked questions, He had them reflect on themselves. He gave them love and light and empowerment to be changed and made whole. It’s not what I do, its the love and light of Christ that I allow to roll through me. It is me getting out of the way.
there is so much more I could say, so much more I wanna say, but I have work to get to, My day job plus planning for this dream. Before I go I will say, it is no coincidence I am at the conference I am in St. Louis. No coincidence that when God is working deep in my heart that everything has just came into view. All these mixed dreams I have had i can see fitting together like a puzzle. And to top it all off, I heard an amazing speaker, Bill Strickland. WOW. He completed this blurry vision but also showed me it can be done, if I am willing. God only takes as far as we are willing to work. I am willing to work and I suggest anyone reading this, check out his website and book, I will soon be getting his book!
“All people need is light,” and I say love. (Bill strickland and me)
9:04 pm in St. Louis