Words bring Life

Words. Just Words. Scribbles upon a page, yet they bring freedom, they bring life. Sweet Life. How can something that so many take for-granted be the one thing that brings me life? When I write, when I have sweet melodies playing in the background, I feel like me. The real me. The me He created me to be. It’s my salvation here on earth. My Christ is brought more to life inside of me when I write. With those words, some may judge. But it is different for each of us–being alive. Truly alive in Christ. Being who He has created us to be. I refuse to live my life in a stupor anymore. Denying the gift He has given me, the things He uses to teach me and grow me. I want to live in His way, not the way of the world. Not the way I am supposed to, but in His freedom, His way.

I pray I lose the words no more.

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The Voices That Rob

As I sit every morning and attempt to spend time with my Heavenly Father. Voices fill my mind. Voices of all I have to do and they each sound different. I waste precious time with my Lord listening to them, obeying them. “Did you pay that bill?” So onto my online banking I go. “I wonder if so and so liked my Facebook post,” and onto social media go. Thinking of my chores, worrying about bills,thinking of work, my three sons, friends, and my dreams sitting on a dusty shelf. Then I begin to feel overwhelmed. And before I know it,time is up. Somedays I rush through prayer and jump up to get a chore started. Other days I feel paralyzed; like the weight of all I have to do is too much. Can y’all relate? 

Do you hear those voices too? Those voices who rob us of peace, joy, and sanity? Those voices that we allow to steal our precious time with Him? 

I’m sick of letting these voices win. I’m sick of feeling defeated, broken, and lost as a Christian. It doesn’t have to be this way.God has told us so in His word. 
Thus we have been set free to experience our rightful heritage. You can tell for sure that you are now fully adopted as his own children because God sent the Spirit of his Son into our lives crying out, “Papa! Father!” Doesn’t that privilege of intimate conversation with God make it plain that you are not a slave, but a child? (Galatians 4:7 The Message) 
We are set free. You hear that ? FREE. We are not slaves to the world and its ways. We are adopted children of our Father with a heritage to experience. 

I don’t know about you all but that gets my heart pounding a little. For some of you ladies that’s the kind of heart pounding you feel when you see Brad Pitt or better yet, Channing Tatum on TV. 

Okay back to reality ladies, now that I’ve got you feeling that heart pounding sensation. Think of that feeling, that’s how we should be everyday, thinking of the experiences that lie before us each morning, our rightful heritage that awaits. 

But I’d venture to say, more of you are like me. Trying to start the day on fire but feeling more like a wet mop hung out to dry. 

So how do we change this? How do we stop living as slaves and break free to be children of God? 

I think the answer is simple and lies in the word of God and is something we will explore next time. 

For now I encourage each of you to list what consumes your time. What makes you a slave. And don’t fear writing truth, such as being a mother or wife. I’ll let you in on a little secret, I do feel like a slave at times as a mother and wife.  Don’t feel guilty for listing truth. We need this truth to continue the journey.  

The Reason For Your Pain 

“The more she hurt, the more she learned how to help others who were hurt.” (Uninvited pp.84) 

With those words my heart was gripped and tears spilled over. I heard the gentle words of my Father, “The hurt you’ve had has prepared you to love and help the hurting souls. It has allowed you to be prepared to go to those on the street and love them. Where others only judge, you love. Let me fill you with the hope you so desperately need, the grace to give to other wounded souls on the street.” 

Just like Abigail in 1 Samuel, I can make a choice to let grace fill me in difficult times. I can chose to let grace overflow. 

It is a choice! My choice. 

And as I read I realized God has been preparing me for the work He has for me. I knew that at one time. I understood the hurt, pain, and  trials made me who I am. I knew they allowed me to love the unloved. It allowed me to bless, to understand, identify, and help. 

But somewhere along the way, I lost that. I allowed anger, doubt, and insignificance to fill those hurt places, instead of the beautiful grace He’s so lovingly given me. And all this has done is produce more hurt, more anger, more death. 

If I want to be victorious in my walk with Christ I must not play the part of a victim. If I want others to be victorious, I must first be victorious myself. Then I can help them rise above a victim mentality that’s only holding them back. Only then can I help them see how they can be set free and made whole again in the arms of a Father who loves them do dearly. 

Thank you Lord for how you teach us.Thank you for your grace who fills those broken places, the grace that lovingly binds all my wounds. The grace that only multiplies so it can spill out into the lives of others who so desperately need it. 

I love you Lord. I love you. Thank you Jesus. In your holy and most precious name we pray. 
(Lysa Turkeurst, Uninvited Book). 

“I Chose You” 


I’ve been working in a Bible study called The Disciples Cross. I would encourage you all to check it out. It has grown me in God tremendously. This week is about prayer; why we pray, how to pray, God ansering prayers, etc. Our memory verse this week is John 15:17 “If you remain in me and my words remain in you, ask whatever you wish and it will be given to you.” 

As I read that verse and have memorized it this week….its such a joy to my heart. We have a God who wants to bless us,who wants to give to us. A God who wants time with us. What a joy! 

 God has used this week so far, in learning about prayer, to tell me to trust Him. From reading about Peter on the waves yeaterday and hearing Him whisper, “Trust me;” to the praise song this am, You make me brave,” and hearing Him once again whisper, “Trust me.” 

Then as I read John 15 for my quiet time just a few moments ago He tells me, “I chose you.” 

HE CHOSE ME. 

Yes little ole me who has a mouth an attitude. Lil ole me who makes so many mistakes. He chose me. That gives me faith to walk out on the water, to pray those bold prayers, and to TRUST Him. 

But you wanna know the most beautiful part…He chose you too. Yes you, sitting there reading this. Whatver mountain you are facing today,remember God said, “I chose you.” ( John 15:16) 

Welcome Wednesday-God’s Direction

Today’s Welcome Wednesday is from one of my dear friend’s, Erin. Her post hit home for me and gave me so much hope and opened my eyes to the season I am in now. I know you will all enjoy!

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I’m one of those people who has almost no sense of direction, just because I have been there before doesn’t mean I can find my way there again.  In other words,  I’m the reason phones have GPS now!  Some times it’s frustrating, but most of the time  it’s fun!  I have an adventurous spirit so it feels like a discovery every time.  Recently I had to go somewhere in the next town over (and the next town over is much bigger with a lot more traffic , which can be stressful for me) so I put the address into my GPS and headed out.  For some reason my GPS took me a route that I had  never taken before – instead of the fast paced highway it took me down an old 2 lane with little to no traffic.  I cruised down the road with the windows down, enjoying the sunny day, in no hurry, just enjoying my drive.  Even though I was enjoying my trip, I noticed that it seemed to be taking forever to get to where I was going.  Then, as I came around one deep curve I realized I was at my destination! The route I had taken spit me out at the side of the building I was going to.  So, nothing had looked familiar until I was staring at my destination.

A few days later I needed to go back to that store again so I put the address into my GPS and headed out.  A couple of landmarks looked familiar, but I still didn’t know my way really well so I relied on the navigation system.  Suddenly, I was at my destination!  I was baffled – how did this drive that seemed to take over an hour the first time (with no traffic) only take 26 minutes?   I was mulling this over a few days later when the Lord told me something that blessed me!  He said “some times you know where you’re going (spiritually) but you don’t know how to get there, so it seems to take forever because you have never been to that ‘place’ before… You could be just around the ‘corner’ from your destination and you don’t realize it because you’re not going the way you thought you would!  It always goes faster when you know the way to where you are going, but when you don’t know the way you rely on someone who does – Me (the Lord) !”

Wow!  Yes Lord! I know where He has called me to go, and I realize that in the past the enemy has stollen a lot of the joy from my journey by making me think I was going the wrong way, I was going too slow, or that I wasn’t moving forward at all.  You see, from my perspective, I was so far from where I wanted to be and where I am called to be spiritually!  But here’s the thing, if I had gotten in my car and looked at myself in the mirror I wouldn’t have gotten anywhere or I would have wrecked.  But looking forward and listening for the instructions got me there. In Psalm 25:4-5 it says, “Make me know Your ways, O LORD; Teach me.” Your paths. Lead me in Your truth and teach me, For You are the God of my salvation; For You I wait all the day.”  And in James 1:5 it says, “But if any of you lacks wisdom, let him ask of God, who gives to all generously and without reproach, and it will be given to him. ”  So, I can ask the Lord to teach me as I go, and His written word says that if I ask Him for wisdom, He will give it to me! He desires for us to ask Him and to travel with Him, to keep our eyes on Him. I’m not saying we should never “look at ourselves in the mirror” or examine our hearts, but we should do it when we are prepared to have grace and mercy for ourselves.  Grace and mercy enable us to be humble, and humility lets us rely on Him.  God’s written word says that “His mercies are new every morning”(Lamentations 3:22-23).   If He has mercy for us, then He has mercy through us, for us to give ourselves!

So my prayer is, whether you know where you are going or not, that you would draw on the Lord’s mercy for yourself, that you would not judge yourself but that you would forgive yourself , look forward and listen for the instructions to get you to where He has called YOU to be ! Glory to the Lord!!!

Erin M. Watras is head over heals in love with the Lord and  she is married to her best friend, her husband Tyler. Erin is a Holy Spirit filled massage therapist, artist, worshiper of Jesus Christ, and mother to one sweet dog(Agnes) . Together Erin and Tyler  live their passion to serve the Lord in their marriage, businesses, church/fellowship, and international ministry. Erin has a gift for receiving revelation from the word of the Lord and is enthusiastic about sharing it ! She doesn’t have a blog yet, but if you are local and need a massage please checkout her facebook page, https://www.facebook.com/livingtraditionmassage/?fref=ts

 

Sunshine Amidst the Rain

The last week has been a whirlwind of emotions. I felt as if life was flashing by with all we have had going on. And in  every single moment, God has been present. He has been there with His hand upon us, his arms around us, never letting us go.

We were blessed last week to go and visit my Father for Father’s day and take my stepson Nick. It was such a wonderful trip but all we could think of is how we missed our dear sweet boys, who were still kidnapped and in Mexico. We enjoyed time in Chicago, time chilling with family and made wonderful memories.
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While there I began to not feel well and on the way back home I was cramping badly. I toughed it through and went to the ER after the long 15 hour drive. In the 3 hrs at the ER I found the devastating news, news I was prepared for because I had an instinct and had been praying to God about it. But still it was heart breaking news,  I was having a miscarriage. We were heart broken and we cried but we knew God has a reason for all things. And we were being blessed in a bigger way because on the way home, we had gotten the call that our boys had been found in Mexico! Yes our boys would be home!

We had a few hours sleep and I had to go back to the doctor. I had an ultrasound already scheduled and I am blessed I was able to see my little “nugget.’ Even more blessed my husband asked them to print the picture off for us. We saw our little nugget’s head, no heart beat but still we saw our baby. In the midst of sorrow, I am thankful I have a Father who loves me and holds me close and blesses me with something like that.
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The next day, Wednesday of this week, we were able to drive to Atlanta to pick up our boys. So many emotions ran through us. It felt like a dream. We were prepared by the FBI Counselors for all the different reactions. And I didn’t care what reaction I got because I was going to see my sweet boys again! They were timid at first but soon warmed up. They were brought back with their sweet baby sister and we were blessed to spend time with her and her father for a few days before separating. Its only been a few days but it is like they have never left. My home is filled with chaos again; boys running, nerf guns shooting, and lots of giggles. I am blessed.
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There were times I asked God, “Why?” I wondered why it was taking so long to bring them home. 19 months to be exact. But as with the miscarriage I know everything happens for a reason. We can’t always see why. We don’t always understand, yet we must trust no matter what. We must worship Him and love him no matter what. Because He is for us, not against us. He loves us and has a bigger plan than we can even imagine.

It is seeing the sun amidst the rain. The blessing in the sorrow. My husband and I are not the same people we were 19 months ago. We have grown, we had to lean on God. I personally know it drew me closer to him, it made me rely on him, trust in him. With that comes “a peace that surpasses all understanding.” (Philippians 4:7)

Yet our learning, our growing is not over. Now our boys are home and we must deal with forgiveness again, as we look at scars, ribs from starved bodies, hear of broken bones, neglect, and hear comments like,”Man it feels so  good to eat.” Or hear prayers, “That I will eat good today and have food everyday.” I have to hold back tears several times a day. And in the midst of the heartache we feel for all they endured I pray; I pray their mother comes to truly know the Lord. I hope she does the time for this horrible crime to her children and I hope from that she is able to finally see her mistakes and see she needs the Lord. She may not see the boys again but I pray her heart changes. It is all I can do so the anger and bitterness do not take root in my heart.

Those of you hurting in the world, know He is always there, waiting on you to see Him, to want Him, to call out to Him. Never think you are abandoned in your hurt in pain. It is okay to cry, it is okay to say, ” why?”  Just don’t let it consume you. Instead be consumed by Christ, he will carry you though. There is sunshine even in the rain.
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Much love,

Alissa Marie

No Condemnation in Christ!

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I love that writing helps me process what God is teaching me. That as I begin to write my mind can make sense of all I have flowing and tumbling through it.
Today as I begin to study I was feeling bad for not praising him right away instead I was on yard sale pages on facebook.
As I was asking God to forgive me, I heard the Spirit whisper, “you are forgiven, not condemned.” I needed that, as I tend to condemn myself, beat up on myself. Then in typical God fashion, I open my Jesus Calling devotional and today is about having a new mind in Christ. About how he doesn’t condemn us.
I read the first part of Romans 1:1 and the first thing I read is, “there is no condemnation for those who belong to Christ Jesus.” What?!!? Can I get an Amen!
I love how my Savior works and teaches us. How He loves us.
As I continued to read through, (8:1-17) I realized I don’t have to let my sinful nature take over, all I have to do is keep my eyes and heart fixed on Him. Have his mind… not mine!
My prayer is we will see how He loves us, how He doesn’t condemn. If you are feeling condemned, that’s not of Christ! Don’t listen to that…instead pray, read his word, praise Him. The more you do this, the more you will have His mind, the mind of Christ!!

Much love,

Alissa Marie