The Beauty Inside of Me

My heart beats contentedly.

As the notes play out and ring true, they resonate deep inside of me.

They bring about the fire that is all that I am and words begin to flow freely.

My heart pounds, tears grace my cheeks.

I am me in this moment, I am all that I am to be.

I dream. I see of vision of a future of me.

It is still not clear but here I sit typing words.

Here I sit one day at a time, evaluating my next step.

I am beginning to let go of the hold I let the world have on me.

I am becoming free.

It is what Christ wants us to be. Yet we take on more.

We get lost in a sea of uncertainty.

We allow the world to pull us out into the murky sea.

But no more for me. I am swimming free. Going to the shore that I am meant to be.

I do not want this American dream. I want me in Christ, free.

I may build a house and live in my small town.

But I will write and write and write.

My heart will be poured out onto a page and lives will be changed.

I will love and carry the broken hearted. I will bear their burdens but in Christ’s way, for his “yoke is light, and easier to carry.”

I replay the sound that made the words begin.

Tears stream down.

In this moment I am alive. I am free. I am me.

My fire is burning bright.

Love encompasses me and all that I am to be.


Written 4-21-12 1:20 am

written to “Rose” off the Titanic Soundtrack



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