Well, I can not believe I let a month go by without writing here. What have I been thinking? I know that I let life get in the way and stop me from pouring my heart out.
Can you beleive that watching Felicity would call me upon this place agin? Yes, I said, Felicity. I remember watching the first part of Felcity when I was in 10th grade. I just related with Felicity so well. Iwanted to be brave like her and venture out on my own. I wanted to see the world, find myself and live out my dreams. Now, the painful truth is that I didn’t do it. I am 25 years old and did what my family wanted. I am married and watching friends have babies and families and I find myself wanting that becasue I don’t think I can have my dreams anymore. I want my dreams. To write and play the piano. To study those things…that is my dream! How can I get there? I am married and we are one and it take sa lot….money for rent, etc. Yet, I feel that same longing in my heart watching Felicity as I did when I was 15 years old. Can oyu beleive….10 years have passed? 10 years and my heart longs for what it did when I was 15 years old! It is not too late….my husband and I must venture out and follow our dreams. We must! I don’t want to be 55 and still wishing I had followed my dreams! I must begin….my husband and I must begin! I am seeking God and His direction for this…I want to follow His willand not my own. And I feel these dreams, He has given to me. They are there but I still must seek His direction. I know there is more than this town and if I seek Him…He will direct us, bless us and show us the way.
It is amazing how one little show, Felicity, can awaken someones dreams again.