So I am definitely in a new place in my life now….a place where I am broken and I know I will get through it. I will grow and become the person God has created me to be. I can’t be “lost” in this forever…. Another year has gone by…I am now 26 years old and my life is def. not what I thought it would be. Based on being 16, 10 years ago, I thought I would be in california becoming a famous singer and would have gotten a degree in poetry. Married to the man of my dreams, whoever that may have been and had a least one child and wanting at least 3 -5 more…….
Man…..I am so far from what I thought I would be, where I would be, who I would be…..that is life and the choices we make. Sometimes it is what life brings us but so much is our choice. I chose the teaching degree, I chose to do what others thought I should. i chose to marry a non-christian, I chose to speak horribly to him and I chose to let him have his way, like a spoiled child and walk all over me. Yes, I feel I chose the life I have……it was my choice……. now we shall see where my life goes….
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, in a career I never thought I would be in. I am still the oldest of 8 kids (both of my parents are remarried) and I am still that same girl I was in high school. The one who saw a bigger world. The girl who wanted to make a difference. The girl who was going to follow her dreams. I am finally seeing with my eyes wide open and what I see…I do not like. I am the one who listened and did what everyone told her and to a degree still do. I am the girl that stays by your side no matter how you treat her. I am the girl with a temper and anger and resentment that I want to disappear. I am the girl who still dreams and wants to finally take the steps to make her dreams a reality. So, that is me. I do not wish to disclose my real name…for I want to be able to be open here…to be me…finally._______________________________________________________________________________________________________________________________________
It is important that we each do things in our own way. Some people are good with words, other people are good with their hands. While I may have a certain knack with speech, I am no preacher. If people are going to learn from me, it will be through my actions.
You, though, you’ve always had a knack for words, my poetic friend. Never forget who you are, and never forget who you want to be. Always strive for your dreams, and in doing so inspire those around you.